Treating My Diabetes Meant Facing My Eating Disorder All Over Again
I posed the question to her, earnestly, seriously: If given the choice, would she rather gain weight or would she rather die?
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Diabetic. Type 1. Insulin-dependent. Patient is not presently in a state of ketoacidosis. Patient is conscious. History of Anorexia Nervosa but no concerns at present.
speaking of cupcakes
Oh, honey, you’ll be fine. You’ll just need to be disciplined, count your carbohydrates, and always track what you eat.
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Patient may struggle with honest self-reporting.
Hannah Matthews is a librarian, abortion doula, and writer based in Portland, Maine. Her work has appeared in ELLE, Esquire, McSweeney's, SELF, The Lily, BUST, Entropy, and other publications. She tweets at @hannahmsays and cries in public places.
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