Orbits Around My Grandmother: On the Anxiety of Loneliness
“The phenomenon of lonely deaths for aging populations echoes in many pockets around the world.”
paan.
independence.
stubbornness that runs through the veins of my mother and her mother, and hers before hers before hers before her.
this is the vigor that runs through my veins.
Loneliness.
A month.
The way we die is a mirror of the way we live.
cannotMaking chai? Sit with me. Don’t do work. I’m going to shower. I’ll return before ten. I’m full. I’ll call you.
Aphasia,aphatos,aphanai.
I just never had the words for this.
The Namesake,
We:
Does your grandmother like California?
Nana
Do you want Mumbai? Do you want your kids?
chose no-no-no,
Does your grandmother like California?
Does your grandmother like California?
Chappals
cherished—carve
Asha Thanki writes, works, and dances in Washington, D.C. Her words have appeared in Cosmonauts Avenue, The Spectacle, Hyphen, and other publications. She is on Twitter: @ashathanki.
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